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It feels like I have been pregnant forever! At least for the whole year of 2009. When you add up all three pregnancies I have been through an entire pregnancy! wow!

I’m not one who enjoys pregnancy…at all…

Don’t get me wrong, I am NOT complaining AT ALL! This is my miracle baby and I am TRILLED to go through all this pain to have a beautiful baby in my arms. I’ll take 9 months of awfulness, pain, pure exhausted, starvation, nausea, swelling, carpel tunnel, UTIs etc. for the life of my child. Bring it on. I can handle it….I think.

So after my sonograms and charting, we learned that I found out I was pregnant just 8 days after conception. Isn’t that crazy! I found out REALLY early with this one. All to say, I feel more pregnant then only 8.5 weeks.

I start the day off feeling pretty good (not too much morning sickness, however MAJOR NIGHT sickness) and then by noon I am screaming for a nap. If I’m not working, I crash with my little man who God has touched and turned him into a great napper. Are pigs flying? Can you believe I just said that! I’ll probably shoot myself for actually making that public and watch his old ways come back. But God must have known I needed these naps because I need to have energy (if you want to call it energy) at night since I work about 4 nights out of the week.

Then after my nap you would think I feel energized. Nope, ask any pregnant woman, it helps but you feel foggy and still tired when you awake. Then it’s around 4pm and the night sickness hits and gets worse by the hour. It’s a feeling of “I need to vomit but can’t” kinda feeling that hasn’t left me since about 5 weeks pregnant. See I don’t have that problem where food looks and smells gross, oh I wish I was one of those pregnant woman. Instead I have the appetite of a football player and nothing satisfies me. nothing. I make a larger dinner and 30 minutes later the hunger strikes!

If I don’t eat, my nausea increases by the minute. So I eat and then I immediately hate the aftertaste in my mouth so I must brush my teeth right away. And then I’m grossed out by what I just ate. It’s a torturous cycle. I force myself to jog every night so that I won’t explode into a hot air balloon, but sadly I think all the working out isn’t going to stop my body. It’s going to do what it wants.

And so, that is a taste of my world right now. Don’t take this post the wrong way, I am not complaining, just stating facts. I’m loving carrying Baby Hope around, just not loving the pregnancy part.

Thanks everyone for your kinds words and prayers for us and our new little one! I’m definitely in the throes of the first trimester (feeling so sick) and I’ve still got another month. Posts might be a little less as the nausea makes it really hard to do much of anything.

I feel like I have so much to post (Bahamas trip/lots of portrait sessions) but since Thanksgiving is coming quickly among us I thought I would just share some of my crazy, Italian family who I wouldn’t trade for the world. We celebrate Thanksgiving early every year since now that all of us our married we tend to visit the extended families. It actually works in our favor and we get to have two Thanksgivings.

I’m so Thankful for so many things, it’s hard to name everything. Here our a few I named as we were gathered around the table saying what we were thankful for (does every family still do this?). You almost have to. How can you have Thanksgiving without saying what you are thankful for…it just wouldn’t be right!

-My God who provides all we need

-My adoring hubby, super cute funny kid, and my new little one.

-My family (they kept life exciting growing up) and my other family-all the Nickersons.

-Our jobs/business (God always provides the work when we need it)

-My lifelong friends and new ones

-Our outreaching church

-My health and the health of my family

I could go on and on, but I’m tired (even with a two hour nap today-Yes, Abel slept two hours too! THANK GOD he is napping better!!! woot woot)

So, I’ll leave you with pictures of my family. Thanksgivings at my parent’s house are loud, fun, lots of food and full of good memories.

(I realized I could have positioned us a lot better, but we were all hungry and we only took this one photo!)

It’s true!

I’m pregnant AGAIN!

It feels kinda weird even saying it as I’ve been so hesitant since this is my 3rd pregnancy in less than a year. I felt like I had healed emotionally from the loss of Baby Love, so we decided to see what happens. I realized shortly after I got pregnant that I wasn’t sure if I could handled another miscarriage so of course, I started to worry. I decided to have an early sonogram before my trip to the Bahamas to make sure everything looked OK.

The sonogram last week wasn’t promising, in fact it was very discouraging. The midwife couldn’t see anything. Then after a few minutes of searching, we saw a bean pop on the screen, but it didn’t stay there long enough for the doctor to be able to measure. She told us she just wasn’t sure. To her it kinda looked like a 5 week baby, but her concern was that there was not even a yoke sac. She just wasn’t sure so she sent me for blood work. Something I’m all too familiar with. I was so discouraged. Thankfully, my sister Kate came with me since Seth was already in the Bahamas. I was so hoping for a good report, but it just didn’t look good. I had to call Seth and let him know that we might have lost the baby.

I kept thinking, am I really going to have a 3rd miscarriage in a row this year? I’ll admit I was bitter at first, but God worked through me during our vacation and I came to accept “His will be done”. Seth and I prayed every night for a miracle. My heart started softening and I let go of my bitterness. I started feeling REALLY sick last week., like the sickness I felt with Abel. With my last two pregnancies I wasn’t that sick, but with this one I feel like I could vomit at any moment (too much info?) and I am hungry all the time.

So Thursday morning was the big day! My heart was racing in the waiting room. Our doctor couldn’t even stand the wait so as soon as she walked in she just blurted “let’s just do this.” She was with us for our last loss, so she was just as anxious as we were. Within a minute we found the baby!!!! And within another minute we found the HEARTBEAT! I started crying instantly! We’ve been waiting so long to hear those words. We even got to hear that beautiful sound…it was right at 150 beats per minute! To us seeing and hearing a heartbeat is such a miracle! We have had a really tough year with the loss of our two babies so it was music to our ears.

So meet Baby Hope (temporary name) at 7 weeks. Hope is very fitting since we were so hopeful going into this pregnancy and clung to HOPE this past week as we thought we were losing the baby.

And yes it looks like a bean holding a balloon. 

Baby Hope is due to around on or before July 9th, 2010!!!

We’re back!

We had an

AMAZING

WONDERFUL

FABULOUS

FUN

RELAXING

REJUVENATING

TIME!!!!

more photos coming soon when I get back into the swing of things…