My niece Tia hasn’t really let me take photos of her since she was like 12 months old. She would refused to smile and just give me attitude. We thought we would give it another shot since she is now such a mature 3 year old. We literally did this session in about 15 minutes because she was not feeling it. I’d consider it a success though.
And this was my last shot.
It’s really hard to believe that Baby Love was due this week. Just like I did a tribute for Baby August on his due date, I will do the same for Baby Love.
One night this week as I was faithfully doing my evening jog on our treadmill and listening to a song called “Healer” by Kari Jobe, it hit me…and it hit me hard. Baby Love was due this week. Tears just started streaming down my face and I couldn’t make them stop. As a mother, I just needed to take that moment and mourn the lost of my child.
I have grown by leaps and bounds this past year and I know God’s timing is best. We wouldn’t have this miracle girl growing inside me if we had Baby August or Baby Love, so I know all things are for His glory and His purpose.
This is something we had made for our 2 babies to honor their lives. A dear friend scripted it for us since I have horrible handwriting. Baby August is the one in the picture since we don’t have a clear picture of Baby Love.
So for my sweet Baby Love:
It was late in June and I thought “could I really be pregnant again?” and low and behold another surprise positive line popped up on the stick. I thought it would be cute to have Abel hold a sign for his daddy when he walked in the door that read “I’m going to be a big brother!” So that day, we colored a big picture for daddy and when he pulled up we proudly displayed Abel’s artwork. Daddy, of course, was surprised but thrilled.
I felt nauseous and exhausted while pregnant with you. We anxiously awaited our first sonogram. The day came and it was such a wave of emotions and confusion. The doctors could only see a yolk sac. We knew you were there but weren’t sure what God was teaching us. We went the following week and there you were, a little bean at just 6 weeks 3 days, but no heartbeat. We couldn’t give up on you just yet, so we went back praying for a miracle baby, but the following week’s sonogram showed us that you were already with Jesus.
We were told there was a problem and that you might have had Downs Syndrome due to the slow growth. We won’t know until we get to heaven, but we do know that you are now made perfect! I often wonder if God knew Baby August needed a sibling while he waited for the rest of his family to join him in heaven so maybe God thought it best that you join him. Whatever the reason, God had a perfect plan for you. Though it be short, your life had meaning and purpose.
You will forever be etched in my heart and soul. We love you, Baby Love!
On Wings Toward Home
by Pamela Rider
Little life on wings go soaring
To a place of joy, no mourning.
Into arms of Jesus find you
Peaceful, happy, earth behind you.
Oh so grateful is my heart
That God gave you that little start.
Now forever will you be
Sitting at the Savior’s knee.
This past weekend was just amazing!
We stayed at the cutest little beach house in Ocean Grove, NJ. Chrissy’s hubby’s grandparents own it and they were gracious enough to let 6 crazy girls stay there. It doesn’t get much better than hanging around in your pjs with your best gals eating and talking the night away.
I love them all so much and it was just the perfect weekend.
My dear sweet Care Bear is moving to BOISE next week! I still can’t believe it! She was my roommate for 3 years and has always lived somewhat close to me so I am going to miss her SO MUCH! She is the cutest and single!
We gave her a little something to help her out in her new city.
PS-Chrissy, the one holding the card, is pregnant with baby girl Janie. We are due one week apart!!!
Yes, that is snow on the sand.
My boys did just fine without me. I never worried about them either! 
WE’RE HAVING A HEALTHY GIRL!!!!!
All looks well with our little girl!!!!
Thank you so much for your prayers!
She showed a very “calm” side of herself this morning. The sonogram took a bit longer because little miss refused to move. (We are hoping this is a sign of being calm and not stubborn!) The doctor had to come in which made my heart start racing, but it was just because she was being a bit difficult to get a good reading of her heart. But the doctor assured us she looks great!
We are THRILLED to have a girl!!!
Honestly, we would be just as happy if they said “boy”. We just wanted to hear healthy! We are praising God for his goodness!!!
She is measuring a week ahead too….just like her brother!
Enjoy pictures of our little miss…
Do you see those chubby checks…she is right at 13oz.
She is looking right at you in this one. I see a little smile.
All I know is this looks way different then what we saw with Abel!
